What To Do Now

An important event has just happened in my life. I'm unable to see someone I love. There's nothing I can really do about it. It deeply saddens me, but there's no use letting it hold me down. All I can do now is live as I have before. Everything happens for a reason. God has been helping me all along with this issue. He brought me so far, and now I've hit a speed-bump. It seems unfair, but I think this is really just forcing me to be wise. I was getting a bit ahead of myself, losing my sense of morality in a way. I think that now I'll get back on track, I'll figure out my true emotions, and who I really am. I'll find out how dedicated I am, God's offering me another chance. He wants me to stay young longer, experience what's in the moment now. Perhaps this is a blessing in disguise. It'll be a rough few years ahead. They'll be up days and down. But God's going to be there through it all.
I find myself thinking "what now?". Well I need to reclaim myself. I can't let someone else have such a large impact on my life that I lose the sense of who I am. I need to find myself and find God. I need to live my life for God, as I should. Lately I've been distracted. Maybe this break is needed. I'm hoping I'll grow closer to God and learn to love Him and others in perfect harmony.

The Truth Everyone Should Know

Everyone should see this video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IDep-KMxXAE
Aaron Gillespie is one of my favorite musicians and is an inspiration to me. He's real, he's sinned, he gets it.
Today as I watched the video above, I heard what I needed to hear. I was reminded that this world isn't about me. I shouldn't just praise when something good happens, when something bad happens, but always, just became I am, just because God is. I have often felt empty with just praising for thanks and help, that's what I mentioned in the first entry of this blog. Praising God just because He Is, is the fullest way to pray. God, please help me to do so.
(it's of course not my video =P )

Reminder of Joy

Today at church the homily was to remind us that all true joy comes from God. I've been happy the last few days, but mostly due to another person. I'd just like to reflect that as much as I love this person, they'll never love me more than God does. They may let me down, but God never will. God brought them to me. He's the one who loved me first. I must never forget that.